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wargh.. ellooww..

Ahh.. I haven't been updating for sooooo long.. @.@''

Had a lot and a lot and a lot and a lot

A LOOOOOOOT

of things to do.. T______T

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

got to be still..

Be still my soul..

mm..

Be still and know that He is God..

:')..

Trusting Him with all my heart..

Happy Valentines Day

A Big Happy Valentines Day to all you lovers! :)
Be it couples or married! :)

Love is a beautiful thing, never let it go.
Let it last forever and ever, till death tear us apart.

Love is a choice, it is also a feeling.
Love is God, and God is love.

Cherish it and make it last forever.
Love is beautifully imperfect, let God be the center of it all.

Cheers for an everlasting love!

Woots!

Jesus is enough

"I don't have enough.."

Sounds familiar?

We always wanted more, even in the things we don't really need in our lives.

We want more, it is not enough.

Jesus provides all our needs.

He gives us everything, if He doesn't give you yet, He is still waiting for the best timing to give it to you.

He'll give it to you.

The next time you're feeling that you don't have enough in your life,

think about Jesus Christ, think about the Cross.

Jesus Christ is enough.

Gahh..

I'm so bored now..

*cough* *cough*~~

lalalalala~~

fralalalalala~~

wee...

weeeeeeeeee~~

XD..

my birthday's coming!!

Well in a month..

HAHA!

but still looking forward for it XP..

it's on a Tuesday though :(

boohoohoo..

GAHH I GOT TUITION ON THAT DAY!!

T______T..

oh wellsssssss.........

ssssssssss~~~

wellsssssss..

It's the weekend!

Wootsss!

It's finally the weekend babehh! XD..

time to get the partaayy started!!

Hahaha..

Gahhh it had been a really really super duper busy week!

So many HOMEWORKSSSS, TUITIONSSS and stuffsss...

*faints*

BUT ITS FINALLY FRIDAAAYY!!

XD..

and it's FEBRUARY!

really really fast..

it's really like in a blink of an eye haha!

Had a really nice evening with dad~

Went for piano class and it went well! Feel so syok hehehe
then went dinner with dad..~

so blessed la!

XD..

that's my sister trying to spray the cockroach in my room..

I seriously dislike cockroach! GAHH!

school's been good..~

Mm..

Learnt that we should always count our blessings than our sorrows,

because when we do that, only then we'll realize that our blessings are actually more than our sorrows!

So be happy!

hehe..

Look at the things that you have and not the things that you lack ;)

So here's to February!

Cheerrs for an amazing month ahead!

WOOOOHOOOO!

XD..

I wanna be with You

You’re more than just a song, You’re more than just a whim 
You’re more than just a passing fantasy 
You’re my Everyday 
You’re my Every Way 
You’re my Everything 

I want to be with You 

I need to be with You 

I long to be with You, precious King 

So with every day, Lord, in every way 

You’re my Everything 

-My Everything, Gateway Worship

Jesus - Lover of my Soul, my First Love;
My Lord, my Savior;

My Almighty Father, my Best Friend...

Jesus, my Everything.

Wednesday

WOOHOOO!!!

Finally finished my homework hahahaahah!

Spent 1 and a half hours doing it! ARGGHHH!

XDD

but okay laaaaaaaaaaaa..

okok laaaaaaaaaaa...

Currently listening to : Lindsay McCaul, Beautiful God
#mynewinspiration !

2 more days of school..!

Make the best out of it everyone!

Have a great last 2 days of school! ;)

Things that you can do in 30 minutes

Go up to your room and change into decent clothes,

 come downstairs,

 Open the fridge,

 take out frozen Popcorn Chicken,

 take out egg,

 put egg into a bowl,

 pour oil unto the frying pan,

 wait for the oil to heat up,

 take out a few Popcorn Chicken,

 put it onto the frying pan,

 fry for about 5 minutes,  

take out a plate, 

put Popcorn Chicken onto the plate,

 put it on the dining table,

 cover it with the cover,

 break egg onto the bowl,

 put it onto the frying pan,

 fry it for about 3 minutes,

 put rice unto a plate, 

put egg onto the rice, 

mix the rice with egg,

 takes fork and spoon,

 eat it for 4 minutes because tuition is at 6:30pm and it's 6:15pm now,

 after eating, 

wash plates, 

wash frying pan,

 wash fork and spoon,

 put it back in place, 

fill your water bottle, 

put it onto the table,

 pack up things from the dining table (Pencil box, books) ,

 open the door,

then realizing key is up in your room, 

run up 2 floors to get the key,

 run down again, grab your bags and bottle,

 open the fridge, 

grab a pineapple and stuff it into your mouth,

 dad comes : "CAMILIA!" "COMING!" ,

 open the door, off the fan, lights, 

grab your slippers and wear it, 

lock the door, open the gate,

 run out and go into the car,

 close the gate, "SUCCESS! I got to eat my pineapple! XD"

Things that you can do in 30minutes, on a Monday evening.

How much things can you do in 5 minutes? 

Forgiveness

Haha.. just wanna do a little quick post...

Yesterday, I was thinking about 'Forgiveness' before I went to bed..
I realized that these two words, 'I'm sorry' and 'It's okay, don't feel sorry..', reflects so much about love.

We make mistakes in life, we say things we don't mean, we show faces and emotions that we didn't really want to show..
We argue, we get angry...

We can do all that, but ultimately, don't forget forgiveness.
Don't forget that two small word, 'I'm sorry', because it could lead to a large impact.

That two words, could change the world.

So it's important to ask forgiveness, not only to God, but also to the ones that you've hurt.

I was praying..
" God, I'm sorry about what I've done just now... I really did not mean it.."

then it's as if He answered me :
"Don't just say it me, tell it to the ones that you've hurt."

" - sigh - Alright Lord.."

And when you apologize, after you've got your reply, saying that it's okay, you'll feel a really incredible feeling.. 

You'll feel loved :)

You'll feel loved whether is it with the relationship with your family member, with your friends, or even with your husband and wife, or your loveyyyy doveeeyyy ones XDDD

when you apologize, and when they forgive,
you'll feel loved.

Forgiveness is a part of the power of Love.
and that's how amazing it is!

Don't know what forgiveness is?
Look above, Look at the cross.

;)

A song to end the post : 

It's a wrap

7th January, 2012 - marks a day of history for my life.

Well it's finally finished now! Haha!
The First Production that I've ever organized.. wow!

Praise God for His guidance and love..

It all started on that small step of faith,

that small courage in saying, : "Lord, I'll do this for you, even if I fall, I know you'll hold me through..."

The road wasn't easy, tough times, tough decisions to be made..

but God had never fail to hold my hand..

I wanted to finish strong, and I've finally did it..
Thank You Lord..

3 months of hard work and effort that the team has made, 

and it all paid off on that Saturday ..

As I was on my way home that night, I saw that same star on the night sky..
It was as if God was reminding me : "I'm here.."
It was that same old star that I saw when I waited outside for my Aunt to come and fetch me on the first day of school last year, when I was still that new student in school...
"I'm here."

I laughed, I smiled, and I told God : "God, You're one funny God.."

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding - Proverbs 3:5

Sometimes you don't know whether it is the right thing to do,

you're confused, you're mourning..

You think whether, is it all worth it?

Lean not on your own understanding..

Trust in the Lord, and He will make your paths straight.

That was what I have experienced, on the 7th of January.

Dedicated to a Special Friend

Dear Wan Li,


Happy Birthday! Haha..

You were the friend who seated beside me back in 2009 and 2010..
We've been friends for 3 years already, and have been in the same class, SAME SEATING!!, for the past 2 years of High School!!

2009

We went through so much together that year, we faced our fears together, we shared secrets together XD

and I still remember, on 2010, you became a librarian, every Monday, we had to go to school early at 8am to tugas, and you know how much I hated it.. XP

Always had to find chairs EVERY DAY when we enter our classrooms...
but somehow we were always doing EVERYTHING together!!

Hahahaha...

You've seen me cry before, and I've seen you cry before..
We got mad at each other before, and we became friends right after that.. 

Through ups and downs, you were always there..!

This year, 2011, I had to leave.. :(
I went to school alone, and to tell you the truth, everyday isn't the same anymore.. T___T

but anyhow.. that doesn't ever affect our friendship!!

WOOHOO!!!

XDD..

Happy Birthday Wan Li,

you've taught me how to be strong, how to be.. well how to be just myself..
You've taught me to laugh, you've taught me to never look down on myself..

Continue to be that friend to everyone else, because I know that Wan Li is a great friend! :)))

Lastly, hope you'll..

and always remember..
WE'LL BE BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!!

woohooooo!!! 3 cheers for FRIENDSHIP! XD

Happy Birthday Wan Li, may your dreams continue to be higher, may your life be a light to others around you..LOVE YOU LOTS!! and God LOVES YOU TOO!!

Love,

Camilia

I'm afraid

Sometimes I'm really afraid of taking chances..

I'm afraid that the decisions I make won't always be the best..

I'm so afraid of life itself..
People.. Decisions..

It's never easy..
Sometimes you just don't know whether you're doing it right or not..
You have to look at every corner, at every faces...

at every heart..

I'm afraid..

so very afraid..

 think this song really speaks a lot about life :

Sometimes you don't know what's the best way for you, for everyone..

but it's alright to make mistakes, it's alright that not every time you get to please everyone..
as long as you remember that God will be by your side each time you feel afraid..
He'll be there to hold you when you fall, didn't He promised that He'll never leave you alone?

You're never alone facing the trials of life..
It'll never be too big for God and Us to solve it...

So strive.. strive a little more..

This is my desire.

You are my strength

"You are my strength, strength like no other, strength like no other, reaches to me..."

28th December, 2011
Dear Bloggie,

Haha, yup that's me right up there.. First time actually posting a picture of me haha! Took that from school.. Today we had another Christmas Production practise, it was from 9am to 3pm.. Yesterday we had one too.. I really can't believe that time is passing so fast, the production is next week! Wow!

"You are my hope, hope like no other, hope like no other, reaches to me..."

It has been really tiring... I'm starting to feel all the burdens climbing on me already.. @.@'''.. and can you believe it, tuitions are going to be starting next week! I feel that I haven't had enough rest... there's just so many things to do.. wargh!!

1... 2... 3... Close your eyes, count till 3.. take a deep breath, and count on Him... 1... 2... 3...

One thing's certain though, I thank God for the support of my family and friends, for making the production come to life. So much hard work, so much time sacrificed... T__T..

Well, time for dinner. In the mean time, I'll be trusting Jesus.

Signing off.

Missing something?

26th December, 2011
Dear Bloggie,

Well, Daddy and Mummy finally bought me a nice Digital Camera to reward me for my PMR archivement! Haha.. but I still feel that I should get a video camera instead.. Oh wells, cheers to the pursuit of camera-taking! Kachiakss! XD..

Yup.. for the last WHOLE week, I was at home resting, sleeping, resting... Had a huge headache, couldn't go to school, couldn't do anything, just ate my medicine, eat, sleep... but I'm finally well now thank God! Somehow I think that God made me sick so that I could rest a lil...

Holidays are ending, I'm really asking myself : Did I wasted my holidays? All I really wanted to do was to pamper myself, go to movies, meet up with my old friends.. but I've never done any of that... that's why this week, I'm gonna have a movie outing with my cousins! Though it's not with my old friends.. :( Sigh, I wish  I could drive!

I somehow feel like I'm missing something. Something really really important.. the year is almost ending, but I still feel there's something I'm forgetting...

Is it with my family? I've been aware with my actions lately, I need to change the way I talk and act to my parents. I need to love them! I need to care for them..! Camilia, you need to change!

Yeah maybe it's that.. but I don't know.. I still feel abit sad in the inside.. I really don't know what it is.. Perhaps the reality that the year is finally ending is starting to hit me... Ouch.. I still can't believe that it's going to end so soon. Too soon, too fast. 

Well... I don't know.

Signing off.

1,2,3

If my life were a movie,

what would it be called?

The girl with adventures, 

or the life full of wonders.

If my life were a movie,

who would be my dreams?

I know, my family and friends,

and that great big God.

If my life were a movie,

will there be a love story?

Yes, is the answer, towards the end,

I'll see an old man, and an old woman,

hands to hands, back to back.

1,2,3.

haha! I wrote this poem this morning after I woke up..

It's nothing biggy but felt like sharing it haha!

1st poem X)

tmrw's PMR results!

*fingers crossed*